Confessing Fifty

When I started this blog I was 47  and was just "finding forty". In other words, finally becoming comfortable in my forty-something skin. I'm 50 now and it is much harder than I had imagined. The whole concept of being 50 is much more of an issue that I contemplate than being in my forties was. I get all "Jodie Foster" in my head and pronounce to myself  " I Am 50!!! I Am 50!!!!" Putting all kidding aside, it has been difficult at times when I look back on my life and realize there are things that I just feel too old to do. When in reality I am probably not. I could take a new career path  develop a new skill, or start my own style company. That is what I really want to do. My last year in my forties was a difficult one. In a nutshell: I had shingles, breast cancer, a lumpectomy, six and a half weeks of daily radiation treatment, surgery on a hernia which gave me another cancer scare for awhile, lots more aches and pains in my joints, and oh yeah, my car caught on fire and was totaled after being in the wrong place at the wrong time. (parked next to a car that was being targeted with Molotov cocktails and yes that really did happen) I must now mention the really good things; Mike graduated Law school, passed the  very difficult Florida Bar on the first try, finally got a really cool job that was worth the wait and is living MY dream,  and his too in a nice building downtown. Tara and Brad got married and are having a wonderful life together. Zach is doing great at Full Sail following his dream and already has some work on the side. Life IS good at 50!!